(500) days of summer

this is not a love story. it is a story of boy meets girl.

if i have to name a great movie in 2009, this would definitely be in the list. i dont know why but i just cant help falling in love with it just like when tom first met summer. it is not the usual love story when couple meets, argues and back together again. the movie experience is bitter sweet.

this is exactly the way i am feeling right now with him. love is bitter sweet. it has its ups and downs but that is what made the bond stronger and even more magical. i start to appreciate the little things and effort by him. he taught me how to love and be loved.

i am dying to re-watch this movie and friends would know i do NOT do that at all. so the conclusion is i really do love this movie. maybe i would be inspired by tom and take up architecture just when i am in my final year. what a joke! enjoy this movie when you can.

stop complaining about your life!

is it really that bad? stop digging the negative points about life! why not take a step back and look at things at another perspective. they dont show their love openly, probably because they arent expressive people. they dont hug and kiss you good night everyday but it is alright. they have their own way to tell you i love you.

i should learn to be contented with my life.

reality check

reality check. what is considered as the norm and does it exist?

a norm life of a child is to get into a SAP primary school (not sure if this is still what they called those schools now) because it gives the parents an assurance that the child will be able to ace his studies. after that, good studies is not the only worry on the parents' minds. they are seeking a all rounder development in secondary school. that is when the division occurs and obviously all parents want the best for the child. ideally, the child must graduate with at least a good honours degree and is able to find the suitable job that fetches super high pay.

wake up! that's not happening to me here. this is society's norm? anything besides that are not worthy enough in this godly society? high spirited and adventurous when i am put in an unfamiliar and foreign environments. there are so many crazy things and ideas that i thought of that i want to do. i really do feel that impossible is nothing outside. but when you are back to home sweet home, you are pulled back to reality.

i must obtain good grades are constantly on my mind. friends attending career talks and applying to jobs that are prestigious. most or maybe all said good academic results is not everything. they want to look at our lives outside studies, the so-called soft skills, too. seriously, i doubt how much truth there is in their words. i personally heard this hr personnel first asking the student, so is this your current CAP, when he passed her his resume. we are also looking at other qualifications the applicant has besides good results. tell me about it.

i wish life could be more lenient.

you should know when to stop

not get over her, i want to get her back.

is this being stubborn or having a positive mindset?

your conscious tells you that there is no way you can do to improve on the situation anymore. all factors are not within your control. it is something like it really depends on the others now. but you just refuse to give up. you want to have another shot at it because you believe that no matter how insignificant your effort is, there is always a change. the magnitude of this change is not important. probably, you will succeed if you are given another opportunity. just one more. that's what we always heard.

but really, do you need that one more additional shot? do you really believe that it will make things turn around? there is really a thin line between being stubborn and naive. you should just know when to stop and let it go. stop acting like a bull!

wait, there is not the right way. we should always think on the bright side of life. like what everyone said, the sun will always be up after a gloomy day. does it help? will it make you feel any better when you are being pushed up the wall? it doesnt change anything but mind is always stronger. when you are trapped under a collapsed building, you dont tell yourself that yes, i am going to die right here right now. nobody is going to find me and bring me out of this damn place alive. the rescue team will have to carry me out. no! you tell yourself i have to survive i have to survive i have to survive i have to survive. that's why there are miracle stories of survivors who managed to escape despite being trapped under collapsed buildings for days. that's being positive.

oh why why why. why is all these negativity clouding above my head? just let things flow and nature takes its course. is this really what i want? i feel so handicapped when i am not in control. probably if world is a little less superficial, i might be a happier person.

grow old with you

i was listening to a short segment of 987 home and i heard this song.

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
I'll kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

I'll need you
I'll feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if youve had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you